Tuesday, June 7, 2016

STARTING MY BLOG

I have been searching to gather information on how to start a blog.  Finally I got a list of the top 10 free blog websites, this being one of them.  I really want to be in the practice of writing so I can hone in my skills and be a good writer.  Like everything writing takes alot of practice and requires alot of reading too.
  Today the sky is gray, mirky gray.  It has been day after day or may gray that has then brought us to our June Gloom.  Sometimes we escape it, but not this summer.  I have to admit, as a positive person that I am, this weather is surely unmotivating and somewhat depressing.  You have to stay busy or it really gets you down.
  It is not that surprising that I thrive on the sunshine all the time.  Being born and raised in So CAl, I am used to sunny skies all year.  In fact when we dont have it things seem off.
   Here are my goals.  To find the correct blog site and just start writing. This is private so this is just practice for me.  I need to get startet so I can learn and start to grove on my endeavor.  Everybody started somewhere.  I feel like a fish out of water. So much to do to learn yet, nobody can teach you your inner voice or your style.  I keep looking for it.  I cant find it. Yet the answer lies inthe body of work that I will do, time and time again. So  without wasting anymore time. Im starting now.  I am hoping thru this journal that maybe in a months time, i will be able to look back and see and particular voice or style that I have.   I know it is thru trial and error.  We will see. Kinda exciting and frustrating at the same time.  I just want to start right away.  I seriously dont think I have a style yet. What if nobody really likes my style, what if i have to change it, once i find it.  That would be even more frustrating.  All writers feel the same.  Who is the audience, who are we trying to connect with, what it it we want to say.  The good thing is, the world is my audience.

my story



Everybody has a story to share.  This is mine"

I am a native of So Cal, .  Blue Skies, outdoor fun, warm weather, outdoor concerts, biking at the beach, or basking in the sun with a good book.  The so cal life is amazing and at times can be a place to get away from. Too many people

As a grown women, divorced, unemployed with 2 almost adult children I had the rude awakening of Breast Cancer.  Not the typical breast cancer that will go away after an arduous plan of chemo, radition or whatever the dr would prescripe.  No mine was different.  Classified as stage 4, right out the door.  How was that?  I was a pillar of helath, weight in check, ate healthy, excericed all the time, fit and trim,  didnt drink much. The one kicker that is the contributer, is I have always had an extremly stressful life, that  got used to.  One that took a major tole on my body.  I was doing it all, working, being a mom and a dad, working overtime and bearing the brunt of kids issues as they grew into the early teens.   It just seemed impossible.  But the truth was, it was cancer they could treat but not cure.  Took a while to wrap my head around that one.  ( I will have more on that later.}.  That was almost 5 years ago.  I am living a dream.  I live on anti cancer drugs and get a monthly chemo to keep all the cancer at bay.  
   So all cancer surviours say this:  Its true. it has changed my life.  How could it not. I was given maybe 3 years to live, but could get my cancer back within 6 months.  My perspective on life has changed.  The first years all I wanted to do was spend time with family, then that turned into all i want to do is have fun, good healthly fun, that turned into what can I do with my life that is meaningful and everlasting.  The thought of how can I be remembered just always resonates in my head.  So i am here today, blogging . I am a full time student pursuing a journalism degree.  I have alot to say.   My life these days are about creating life, putting the things in our life that matter, being heathly, living healthyly, being creative and finding a purpose and joy..  For anybody reading my post, please leave a comment, they are welcom.   My life is going to be chronicled here. I need feedback.